On the outside, I may look like a happy go lucky 27 year old diabetic women (wow-reality is setting in that I am no longer a kid anymore), however my inside is much different. I don’t think there is a such thing as a perfect diabetic. If there is one, let me know whom it is. For all of us have had our fair share of moments. i have 2 things that I need to clean out of my diabetes closet. The first one is, I have hid on countless of times, the real truth of why certain things with my diabetes is happening. For example, when I would be going through long patches of high moments, I would say to the doctor, “I don’t know why.” When in reality, I did because I would take off my pump or stop taking injections and testing because I couldn’t cope anymore.
The other thing that I need to clean out is that I am sick and tired of hiding and stuffing all my emotions inside of me. Pretending all is fine when it is not for the sake of others. Well, I am not doing it anymore! I can’t do it anymore. I used to stuff them more then what I did, but a wise physiologist who works with tons of diabetic patients said, “Don’t stuff them, and stop worrying that you are going to overwhelm people to much. That is why there is the DOC (Diabetes Online Community) reach out to them, because that is one of the many reasons why they are around. If you are going through a rough patch there are probley at least 5 more going through something simular.” Learn your boundaries, and others too and trust me when I say things will get better if you do this.”
So I took the advice, and went with it. Since I started to reach out instead of pushing in, things overall have became easier, and because I did I have seen my own positive progress happen. At last check, I believe a 3% HA1C decrease (yes- 3% not .3) and 5 pound weight lost is a start. Positive interactions and feedback are hugely important to me in helping me become the person I am today. As I am sure, you have heard the saying “Rome wasn’t built in a day.” I say this to you my fellow dia-friend, “Buckle your seatbelt, because when we all received our diagnosis we became apart of a long ride that come apart of life living with diabetes. That includes many hills, valleys, and potholes.” Many things on which can be both positive and negative, but it can only be negative if we let it be. Nothing will ever be perfect, but easier.
Writer’s Note: Thank You for taking the time to read my blogs, I have been working on become more consistent with blogging. Please be patient as this happens and I learn the tricks of the trade. This is my first blog in a long time, and was super nervous about it. I hope it is the beginning of something new for me as a writer, and you as a following reader. I am still a beginner at the whole blogging world, I just want to make sure it is done right when I publish. So, if you have any question’s at anytime, want to give me feedback to help make things better please don’t hesitate to contact me! Thank you! – Cath 🙂